Open Door Church

Rainbow flags at church.

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Something big happened recently.

And the fact that it fell on my birthday, was just one of those moments I felt God smile on my life – so I smiled back.

July 25 was our first in-person church service at Open Door Church since Covid, and that was (CUE TEARS) emotional enough.

It was also a faith milestone for me.

Our pastor Bradley asked me to be the one to hang the rainbow flag on our building, as part of our becoming an official affirming church. (😭❤️🌈🙏)

I wasn’t prepared for the feelings that flooded my body as I (unsteadily) climbed the ladder(s) to hang this flag. All my years of feeling rejected from church and knowing that I would never truly be welcome.

Wow. What this means to me. To my faith. To my family. To my LGBTQ Christian community.

What this means especially to those who gave up hope desperately wanting to see this beacon in their night.

I want to sit with this.

I want to let it slowly sink to the bottom of my soul like a heavy rock laden with gratefulness.

I want the dust that it kicks up to be my continual reminder that good change is alive and well.

Never give up, my friends. You are SO loved.

Speaking in two places at once!

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Thanks to pre-recording my messages, I was able to speak at two churches today! (Thanks technology!)

The first was at Harcourt Memorial United Church in Guelph, Ontario, for their Affirming Sunday Service! With everything going on, it felt most appropriate to share about the challenge of balancing both grief & joy. My message is about 12 mins long, starting at 14:37 on the below video. Feel free to enjoy their entire beautiful service, though!

They also asked me to write a blessing for them, as part of being the guest speaker. I thought I would share the text of that here too. (It’s at the end of my message.)

May you feel warmly supported 

When you relax into grief

May you wrap your arms around yourself

In loving kindness

Knowing you have been doing your best

And you have been trying so very hard 

May you envision our Mother or Father God,

Wrapping their all encompassing arms around you

In your pain, in your sorrow, and in your joy

May you have the courage to feel the pain

To really feel it

But in doing so, also be filled from a deep well of hope

In life’s endless possibilities, in the triumph of love

In the beauty of the small moments 

In each deep healing breath

And may you feel God’s love gently pursuing you

Shining warmly upon youLike the fresh morning sun

May you place your hand on your heart, and feel the soft, strong beats

And know you are not alone

And you are loved.


The second was sharing my message at my home church Open Door Church here in Maple Ridge, BC. I was so excited and honoured that they invited me to share on the first Sunday in Pride month! I originally recorded this message in Nov 2020 for a conference where I got un-invited, and it was wonderful to finally share it with my own beloved community. We gathered on our Facebook page to be together live, and here is the archived service in its’ entirety. (They read Rainbow Boy near the beginning too, which was so fun to watch! Thanks ODC friends!)